For a majority of the week I have spent most of my time either sitting on my bed staring at a blank word document or compulsively cleaning my apartment. Yesterday I washed my hands a total of 57 times and brushed my teeth 7 times. Feel like the MVP of 'never ever sleeping'. Feel like a fucking champ. I have also been fighting a major meltdown with all of the heat in my brain that I think is in there.
There is always all this noise. People in my building open and close their doors. People in my neighborhood mow their lawns. My phone vibrates. The refrigerator occasionally makes a sound.
The worst part about this is there is constant motion. There are 7 billion and something different realities that are not mine. People are living lives without me.
I feel music helps. It helps create an illusion in my head of some sort of pause I think. I listen to the same songs over and over again. Sometimes I sort of dance around in my room and then realize my curtains are open.
Girls // Alex
Beach Fossils // Clash the Truth
Courtney Barnett // Avant Gardener
Sonic Youth // JC
Pallbearer // Foreigner
Yo La Tengo // And the Glitter is Gone
Merle Haggard // I Think I'll Just Stay Here and Drink
Real Estate // Green Aisles
Black Flag // Six Pack
The Body // Song of Sarin the Brave
Land of Talk // It's Okay
The Fall // Big New Prinz
